To Anyone Who Ever Asks

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Longlisted for the Plutarch Award

The mysterious true story of Connie Converse—a mid-century New York City songwriter, singer, and composer whose haunting music never found broad recognition—and one writer’s quest to understand her life

This is the mesmerizing story of an enigmatic life. When musician and New Yorker contributor Howard Fishman first heard Connie Converse’s voice on a recording, he was convinced she could not be real. Her recordings were too good not to know, and too out of place for the 1950s to make sense—a singer who seemed to bridge the gap between traditional Americana (country, blues, folk, jazz, and gospel), the Great American Songbook, and the singer-songwriter movement that exploded a decade later with Bob Dylan and Joni Mitchell.
 
And then there was the bizarre legend about Connie Converse that had become the prevailing narrative of her life: that in 1974, at the age of fifty, she simply drove off one day and was never heard from again. Could this have been true? Who was Connie Converse, really?
 
Supported by a dozen years of research, travel to everywhere she lived, and hundreds of extensive interviews, Fishman approaches Converse’s story as both a fan and a journalist, and expertly weaves a narrative of her life and music, and of how it has come to speak to him as both an artist and a person. Ultimately, he places her in the canon as a significant outsider artist, a missing link between a now old-fashioned kind of American music and the reflective, complex, arresting music that transformed the 1960s and music forever.  
 
But this is also a story of deeply secretive New England traditions, of a woman who fiercely strove for independence and success when the odds were against her; a story that includes suicide, mental illness, statistics, siblings, oil paintings, acoustic guitars, cross-country road trips, 1950s Greenwich Village, an America marching into the Cold War, questions about sexuality, and visionary, forward thinking about race, class, and conflict. It’s a story and subject that is by turn hopeful, inspiring, melancholy, and chilling.One of Houston Chronicle‘s Best Music Books of 2023

One of Publishers Weekly‘s “7 Books from 2023 You Shouldn’t Overlook”

One of Pitchfork‘s “Ten Best Music Books of 2023”

Included in Indianapolis Recorder‘s Holiday Book Gift Guide

A NEW YORKER Best Book We Read This Week

A New York Public Library Fall 2023 Pick

One of Chicago Tribune’s “52 Books for Summer 2023”

Featured in the Guardian’s “Summer Reading: 50 Brilliant Books to Discover”

Publishers Weekly Summer Reads 2023 Staff Pick

Featured in The Boston Globe‘s “Best New Books for Summer 2023”

“‘To Anyone’ is the grandly researched portrait of a talent who didn’t get her due…a rich paean to [Converse’s music], and to the profound connections that art can form between individuals, even decades apart.”—The Washington Post

“Gripping and searching… Mr. Fishman’s thoughtful and deeply researched book provides a far bolder jolt than any cover version can provide. It may yet help find for Converse what the author proposes—a place at ‘the table of great American artists and thinkers.’”—The Wall Street Journal

“Packed with detective-level details about a Renaissance woman whose work passed through this world all but unnoticed”—The Boston Globe

“So powerful…A totemic accomplishment and indispensable guide…written with Robert Caro–esque thoroughness. The exhaustive care with which Fishman approaches his subject is itself hypnotic, even devastating.”—Los Angeles Review of Books

“Deeply researched and absorbing… Fishman’s book will resonate with Converse devotees and introduce others to this fascinating and overlooked artist.” —Booklist, *starred review*

“Fishman debuts with a rich biography of Elizabeth “Connie” Converse… Fishman’s research is nothing short of remarkable… Fishman succeeds wildly in uncovering the anguish and beauty in Converse’s bewildering story. This should earn Converse some new fans.”—Publishers Weekly

“[Fishman’s] enthusiasm and diligence is infectious… Through the obsession of such dedicated fans as Fishman, Connie Converse will find a larger audience.” —Kirkus

“Musician, culture writer, and playwright Fishman’s extraordinary trek through the life and works of Connie Converse is a laudable endeavor… the author constructs an emotional narrative.” —Library Journal

“Converse’s story is a natural fit for our cultural moment of reclamation and long-delayed rectification…The closest we’re ever likely to come to the cypher behind those beautiful, heartsick songs.” —The New Republic

“The book is more than a timeline: it’s a quest. Starting with the fateful house party, we ride along with Fishman as he discovers each clue that pulls him through to the next nugget of Converse’s story… The quest not only lends the book the propulsive drive of a mystery unfolding, but also becomes the book’s shadow argument: the art and life of this forgotten woman is worth the work it takes to properly remember her.” —Ugly Things

“An accomplished biography unravelling a decades-long mystery surrounding the complex life and subsequent disappearance of folk outlier Connie Converse… Meticulously researched and richly told.” —Louder Than War, “Best Books of 2023”

“The marvel of this book is that it doesn’t require that you be a fan of Connie Converse’s music to appreciate it. It stands alone as a mystery, an investigation, a portrait, and a poignant story of drifting and dreaming. Fishman artfully draws the reader into his obsession and quest to understand this enigmatic artist and her work.”—Susan Orlean, New York Times bestselling author of The Orchid Thief and The Library Book

“The mystery of American composer Connie Converse’s disappearance in 1974 is ongoing, and she may be lost forever. But her spectacular work has been rescued and elevated to a marvelous level by Howard Fishman. Her music belongs to an America that barely knows it exists.” —William Kennedy, Pulitzer-prize winning author of Ironweed

“Connie Converse’s songs are a revelation, finely wrought, wry, as beautiful as they are weird. I’m so grateful this enigmatic writer and her catalog are being explored and celebrated, in this book and beyond.”—Anaïs Mitchell, Tony- and Grammy-winning creator of Hadestown, and author, Working on a Song

“Howard Fishman proves himself not only to be an expert biographer but a major thinker about American culture… In Fishman’s hands, the life, music, and mystery of Connie Converse reads like a novel—and a quintessentially American story.” —Seth Rogoway, WAMC

“Carried me along like a meandering stream that was sometimes a roaring river. A great achievement.”—Greil Marcus, author of Mystery Train

“To Anyone Who Ever Asks brings a new and original freshness to its account of the New York folk scene and all that happened after. This is not the sepia-tinted folk narrative, but a story where very complex characters turn out to be the greatest makers of art. Howard Fishman’s work is powerful, moving, challenging, a must for all who care about the period and its songs.”—Rick Moody, author of The Long Accomplishment

“Magnificent—the best detective story you can possibly imagine, a soaring tribute to the human spirit, and an astonishing act of recovery. Will touch the minds and hearts of countless people.”—Cass R. Sunstein, bestselling author and Robert Walmsley University Professor, Harvard University

“Terrifically engaging…a passionate and heroic quest in search of lost time.”—Tim Page, Winner of the Pulitzer Prize for Music Criticism and Professor Emeritus of Musicology at the University of Southern California

“It takes a great journalist to find the stories behind the mysteries we carry. Howard Fishman has done that with his superb examination of Connie Converse …in To Anyone Who Ever Asks.”—Ken Burns

“Captivating…Can’t recommend Howard Fishman’s book strongly enough to those who like literary mysteries and are inspired by the crusade to make art against all odds.”—Gregory Maguire, the author of Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West

“A mammoth achievement”—Richard Klin, The Millions

“Written with the detail of a journalist, the passion of a fan, and the ear of a musician.”—Alison Stewart, WNYC’s “All Of It”

“Endlessly fascinating.”—Joe Donahue, WAMC’s The Roundtable

“Fishman’s passion for his subject is contagious, his sense of mission inspiring.”—AirMail

“Essayist and musician Fishman has long been fascinated with Converse, the singer-songwriter who was briefly active in the 1950s New York music scene and disappeared without a trace in 1974. In this biography, he seeks to know the enigmatic Converse, who is now a cult favorite among music aficionados.”—Orange County Register

“[Converse] was a talented polymath unheard of in her time, but in Howard Fishman’s capable hands and lyrical prose, the woman and her work are finally knowable. Her story is incredible, and so is this book.” —Meaghan O’Brien via Boston.com
Howard Fishman is a frequent contributor to The New Yorker, where he has published essays on music, film, theater, literature, travel, and culture. His bylines have also appeared in the New York Times, Rolling Stone, The Telegraph, Vanity Fair, The Washington Post, Artforum, San Francisco Chronicle, Mojo, The Village Voice, Jazziz, and Salmagundi. His play, A Star Has Burnt My Eye, was a New York Times “Critics Pick.” As a performing songwriter and bandleader, Fishman has toured internationally as a headlining artist for over two decades. He has released eleven albums to date, and is the producer of the album Connie’s Piano Songs: The Art Songs of Elizabeth “Connie” Converse. He is based in Brooklyn, NY.CHAPTER 1

Past All Dreaming

In December 2010, I was at a friend’s holiday party. I didn’t know many of the people there, and to ease my social anxiety, I was scanning the spines on the bookshelves when a song came up on the house speakers—one that sounded both entirely new to me and as familiar as my own skin. A woman was singing in a plaintive tone about “a place they call Lonesome,” where she hears the voice of her absent love speaking to her in “everything I see”— from a bird to a brook, “a pig or two,” to a “sort of a squirrel thing.”

Contextually, I couldn’t place the song. It possessed the openhearted, melodic feel of an old Carter Family recording, but there was also some gentle acoustic guitar fingerpicking that reminded me of Elizabeth Cotten, and harmonic movement that seemed to echo the songs of Hoagy Carmichael. The traditional elements seemed so finely stitched together, with such a sophisticated sensibility, that the whole sounded absolutely original—modern, even. The song swallowed me. The party froze. The room disappeared.

Eventually, I sought out the host, who smiled knowingly when I asked him what we were listening to. “Oh,” my friend said. “This is Connie Converse. She made these recordings in her kitchen in the 1950s, but she never found an audience for her music, and then one day she drove away and was never heard from again.” The name of the song was “Talkin’ Like You.”

On my way home that night, I stopped at a local record store that no longer exists and picked up a copy of How Sad, How Lovely, the recently released album of Converse’s sixty-​year-​old recordings. Before going to bed, I cued up “Talkin’ Like You,” and listened to it a second time, now without any distraction.

Again, I heard the bluesy, spooky introduction, sung over an unusual series of seventh and diminished chords—placing it decidedly on the refined side of the popular music spectrum. The combination of the mysterious melody and complex harmony drew me back in, as did the song’s lyrics.

In between two tall mountains there’s a place they call Lonesome
Don’t see why they call it Lonesome
I’m never lonesome when I go there.

I listened as Converse’s lilting, rolling guitar accompaniment followed, as the singer once again began her tale:

See that bird sittin’ on my windowsill?
Well he’s sayin’ whipoorwill all the night through.

Surely, this was a nod to the 1949 Hank Williams classic “I’m So Lonesome I Could Cry.”

Like the protagonist of Williams’s song, the whippoorwill keeps the narrator of “Talkin’ Like You” company when others will not.

See that brook runnin’ by my kitchen door?
Well it couldn’t talk no more if it was you.

The dispatch of her lover’s comeuppance begins, and then does not stop until the song finishes. The object of her affection will not talk to her? No matter; the water outside her door will.

Up that tree there’s sort of a squirrel thing
Sounds just like we did when we were quarreling.

And there it was again. In a poetic leap, the singer identifies the curious sound she hears in a nearby tree as coming from “sort of a squirrel thing”— and sounds far more like a millennial than a young woman writing in the early 1950s.

In the yard I keep a pig or two
They drop in for dinner like you used to do.

Her ongoing traffic with nature continues. She keeps pigs, who join her for meals, the way her beloved does not or will not. The imagery could not be plainer: This person is no better than a pig, and she is perfectly happy to entertain other piglike comers if this one will not satisfy her needs.

I don’t stand in the need of company
With everything I see talkin’ like you.
Up that tree there’s sort of a squirrel thing
Sounds just like we did when we were quarreling
You may think you left me all alone
But I can hear you talk without a telephone
I don’t stand in the need of company
With everything I see talkin’ like you.

It is a bravura bit of songwriting, a lyric both empowering and entrancing. She doesn’t need anyone—neither their sympathy, nor their pity. We all want to be like this, all the time: self-assured, witty, happy, reliant on nobody and no one. Free. Listening to this song, I found it hard not to be captivated by this person, to want her as a friend, to know her.

Yet, as the rest of the album played, as I took in songs like “Playboy of the Western World,” “Father Neptune,” and “One by One,” the suspicions that had been vaguely floating in my consciousness began to harden into the only obvious conclusion: This “Connie Converse” character had to be a hoax, a gimmick. The songs were too fresh, too modern, too anachronistic to have been recorded in the 1950s. And even if they had been recorded back then, someone surely would have discovered this person well before now. Music geeks like me would know about her, certainly, but more to the point: She was so good that we would all know about her.

These recordings didn’t sound like the music of a forgotten someone who was essentially doing a lesser-​known version of what other people had gotten famous for—a Big Mama Thornton to Elvis Presley, an Eddie Lang to Django Reinhardt, a Barbecue Bob to Robert Johnson. As far as I knew, there was no one from the early 1950s on the other side of the Connie Converse equation, not remotely—not in the wide margins of the years that came before her and not in those that immediately followed. This music, if I were willing to suspend my disbelief, would exist out of time, out of music history altogether.

And the liner notes confirmed what my friend had told me: that Converse had literally vanished. Not like a J. D. Salinger, who retired from the public eye but then had continued writing in isolation. Not like a Terrence Malick or a Lee Bontecou or a Henry Roth—artists who stayed out of sight for decades before finally releasing new work. And not like a Captain Beefheart or a Su Tissue, musicians who’d walked away from their careers to do entirely other things. No. Like a Jimmy Hoffa. Like an Amelia Earhart. Gone.

Online searches revealed spare facts, including images of a woman who looked and dressed like one I might see in my Williamsburg, Brooklyn, neighborhood on any afternoon. The cat’s‑eye granny glasses, the shirtwaist dresses, the librarian hairstyle, the parlor guitar—it all smacked of a certain twee Brooklyn aesthetic that back then had already become a fad. No, no, I thought. No way.

During my twenties and thirties, working as an independent musician, I’d come to know more than I’d ever wanted to about self-​promotion. I was now forty, and only too familiar with the cleverness required to hook people’s attention—the spin, the reinvention, the PR stunts. I’d played that game. I knew the P. T. Barnum touch when I saw it.

“Connie Converse” was clearly some canny hipster who’d come up with a clever marketing campaign for her music. Someone who—when not in character—had cultivated impeccable vocal fry and was devoted to the films of Wes Anderson. Her long vintage dress was likely hiding a series of inexpensive flash tattoos. She’d devised a name with a nice classic ring to it, like “Lois Lane” or “Marjorie Morningstar”; created a noirish backstory about a disappearance; photoshopped some images of herself posing in thrift store attire to make them look like 1950s-​era snapshots; and tried to pass off her own music as some kind of “lost” recordings made by this imaginary woman.

John Lurie had done something like this in 1999, with his album The Legendary Marvin Pontiac: Greatest Hits, which was supposed to be the posthumously released lost recordings of a troubled musical genius who’d spent the last decades of his life in an insane asylum—though the album was actually Lurie and his pals having a bit of fun. “Connie Converse” was a Marvin Pontiac. She was not real. These were not old recordings newly discovered. She did not mysteriously disappear one day. There was no such person. She was a fiction. I was certain of it.

To satisfy my curiosity, I googled some more. Sure enough, I could find no news reports of a disappearance, no YouTube footage of Connie Converse performing, no reviews or accounts of her concerts, nothing at all related to her music that was contemporaneous with the time she was said to have been making it. All I could see was a handful of recent blog posts and articles related to the release of How Sad, How Lovely—at which point the internet came to a dead stop.

Then, rereading the album’s liner notes, I noted a detail I’d overlooked—that Converse had served a stint as editor for something called the Journal of Conflict Resolution. I went back online and, much to my chagrin, there it was: a 1968 essay called “The War of All Against All,” written by Elizabeth Converse, the journal’s managing editor.

Pause.

Could it be true? Was she actually real, and had she indeed written these songs—little earworms that sound like absolutely no one else—in virtual obscurity in the early 1950s, a time in American music often associated with the safe, inoffensive sounds of performers like Rosemary Clooney and Perry Como?

The more I listened to her music, the more my curiosity grew. I felt the need to know the rest of Converse’s story, the details that had driven her to make this particular music, at that particular time (if, indeed, she had). What had led to her tragic fate, to her simply vanishing (if that’s what actually happened to her). Who she was or, even, potentially, could still be.

And I found that my experience was not unique. From what I could see online, Converse had already begun to attract a cult of followers who were freaking out about her on social media and chat boards. Because so little about her was known, she seemed more myth than person, and as Greil Marcus wrote in Mystery Train, “History without myth is surely a wasteland; but myths are compelling only when they are at odds with history.” This certainly seemed to be the case with Converse, someone upon whom we could project our own personal narratives and agendas, and no one could argue. She’d already been taken up as a cause by outsiders of many stripes—each of whom claimed her as one of their own.

I fell prey to this same tendency, the Rorschach inkblots of her recordings revealing characteristics I felt I had in common with her, for better or worse: outsize artistic ambition; vulnerability that lay protected beneath a hard veneer of willful self-reliance; a love of language; a disdain for conformity; a refusal to compromise; a desire to be understood; insatiable longing. Without knowing anything about Connie Converse other than what I heard in her music, I began to care about her. Extravagantly.

Had Converse’s songs other than “Talkin’ Like You” been mediocre or worse, had that song been the only real keeper she’d written and recorded, her story still would have been a fascinating one in the annals of American music, albeit a minor one. A young woman writing and recording her own songs in the 1950s, a DIY singer-songwriter back before such terms existed, might have interested scholars and music historians in a footnote sort of way.

But what I heard as I played these recordings again and again was far greater than that. The visionary, forward-​looking quality of what Converse had been up to seemed to suggest the need to update the narrative of mid-twentieth-century American song altogether.

CHAPTER 2

“One by One”

If Converse’s musical catalogue, taken as a whole, is like some metaphorical message in a bottle cast off from the shores of a dull, homogenous time of which she wanted no part (and that wanted no part of her), her song “One by One” may be its unifying message. The lyrics are direct enough:

We go walking in the dark
We go walking out at night
And it’s not as lovers go
Two by two,
To and fro,
But it’s one by one—
One by one,
In the dark.

We go walking out at night
As we wander through the grass
We can hear each other pass
But we’re far apart—
Far apart,In the dark.

We go walking out at night,
With the grass so dark and tall
We are lost past recall
If the moon is down—
And the moon is down.

We are walking in the dark
If I had your hand in mine
I could shine
I could shine
Like the morning sun,
Like the sun.

Converse crystallizes in song the feeling of disconnectedness of midcentury urban America, a trend that has exponentially increased to this day as the dominance of smartphones and social media has made us seem more than ever a nation of zombies cut off from one another and from ourselves (though it’s also arguable that we’re more connected than ever, only in worse ways).

According to the How Sad, How Lovely liner notes, Converse had written and self-​recorded her songs while living in New York City in the mid-​1950s, at a time when new fissures in the bedrock of American culture and society were beginning to have devastating impacts, creating the anomie to which Converse was responding. Urban populations were exploding, middle-​class families were moving to the suburbs, and children in smaller towns and rural areas were becoming the first generation in their families to go off to college. Communities were in flux. In places like Manhattan, it had become a common place experience for a single person to feel, and to be, alone amid millions of other human beings. Modernity, which was bringing about medical and scientific miracles at a rapid pace, also caused its share of collateral damage.US

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Dimensions	1.8400 × 6.2900 × 9.3000 in
Imprint	Dutton
ISBN-13	09780593187364
ISBN-10	0593187369
Author	Howard Fishman
Audience	General / adult
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